Seems like such a simple thing. I’ve heard these words probably a thousand times.
“Why didn’t you just ask?”
Honestly it still doesn’t come easy for me. I’d rather completely torture myself physically, and mentally agonize over something for days before I’d just say “Hey can you help me?”
What’s the problem? Is it pure stubbornness on my part? Or a sick obsession with having to prove I can do it myself. Possibly. (hey, you weren’t supposed to agree with me on that!) I mean people ask me for help all the time, and I’m more than happy to offer my help, so why wouldn’t people want to help me?
Actually, people do want to help!
The problem is I don’t think I’m worth it. I don’t value myself enough to believe someone would want to help me.
And that’s just silly. It’s the old recordings in my head, things I’ve convinced myself of for years all glaring at me saying “you can’t do that”, “you can’t ask for that”. People will think you’re self absorbed, people will think your taking advantage, people will think Oh my God, did she actually ask for that, I mean after all who do I think I am, and the last thing I want to do is make someone feel like I’m putting them out, or god forbid put them in a situation where they might have to say NO, that would be just horrible. Can you see the mental agony happening here?
So this week I’m going out on a limb. I’m erasing the old tapes and moving, actually leaping forward. I’m going to ask and I’m going to keep on asking till I probably get on a few people’s nerves but just as I don’t mind being asked, I’m going to believe people don’t mind me asking. Especially people who care about me, and care about this project. I doubt I’ll wreck anyone’s day or destroy a relationship because I asked.
After all I have to believe I’m worth it. I’m traveling the US telling girls and women they are worth it. How will they believe me if I don’t believe it myself?
So here’s me asking…
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Because I think this project is worth it. I think I am worth it.
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